New Year Old Stuff

Okay last year I decided to continually update my Livejournal account. Now I'm back here because I need a place to vent my emotions.

Ok venting:

I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping the past few months. I get tired I relax and lay down to my favorite shows (AdultSwim) and get comfy and start to drift. The problem arises when my mind does it's drifting. Death is all that I end up thinking about.

I know as you get older death is on your mind a lot. But I am 24. I guess its because I am nowhere near where I imagined I'd be at 24. I imagined having a degree, living with a love. Maybe even contemplating kids within the year or two following. I am nowhere near in a situation that's fulfilling. I realize that a lot of my problems are situational ones that have come about due to circumstances of an uncontrollable nature. But that doesn't mean I can't start new and work my ass off for the life I need.

Healthy attitude right? Well I came to this light-bulb-over-head conclusion on Saturday. All planning to have a great working hard Monday. Today I am sick. Starting to lose the ability to talk sick. And I can feel the way it is, it's going to be worse tomorrow.

Here's hoping shit gets better. Plus I need someone to kick me in the ass and make me stick to my laurels. I think laurels is the right word.

PLUR